Am I that weird???

This semester I'm taking F8 and F4... No need to say. I'm going solo on F4. I kinda made a friend, a foreign student, in F8 cause coincidently that I was at the same class as her in P2. 

So I normally go early to class to book a sit for myself and her at the same time for F8. One day, I went to book, couldn't find a place that could sit 2 person. So went up sitting at the back. Later, I think she didn't see me at the back. End up I sitting alone. The next few classes, she didn't find me to sit with already. She find the other classmate that sit bit front. 

The next few classes, I tried to sit near them, hopefully she saw me or something. Those few classes, I sat around the same group of guys. My classroom is like auditorium like, benches sit. One day, I went and book a sit for myself. I already saw the guys bag at their sit and I saw that there was few available space. So I sat there and mind my own business. 

When the guys came back from lunch. The guy that was about to sit next to me was having big reaction. Like sending a message to his friends that he don't want to sit with me. And he thinks I didn't see his reaction or I don't get his reaction. 

Maybe I'm just being paranoid or something. He might not be talking about me. But the feeling isn't nice. It feel super awful. At that moment I keep convince myself that he isn't talking about me, even part of me might ask keep myself "Am I that bad??"

During our class, my lecturer wanted to the students to discuss in pairs about what she had just taught in class. In his gang, the guy next to him is the odd one out. I could see that his buddies was like, "dude... you gotta pair with her". By judging his face was like "Shit...". End up, he discussed with his friend that sat behind him. Then I tried to have some discussion with another pair of girls that sat in front of me.

I know it will happen to anyone. Like you think that 'this is my territory'. Of cause, when someone you don't know happen to be in the territory, you will be caution and think that the other party was like strange creature that you wanted to avoid and ignore them.

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Then during the break, I went to cafeteria. Don't want to be around that group of people at that moment. So after I bought my coffee and saw the foreign student that I was friend with eating some fried chicken with her other buddy. I thicken my skin (I'm a shy kid, okay) and just join them. I got introduce to the other buddy and ask whether that I could sit with them next class. Permission accepted. Yay!

The next class, I purposely don't want to go class early to book a sit for myself. When I reached the class bit later, I already saw the group of guys and my friend was already there. The guys sat bit more behind and my friend sat more to the front. So I show them the fine-I-could-sit-here-dont-need-to-sit-next-to-you look and sat with my friends. And of cause, I felt much better. 

Small moment of revenge for myself. During this break, I went and bought coffee at cafeteria and I bum to that guy, and I pretend I didn't see him. Back to class, I was sitting at the side, I need to let myself out the allow the students that sat in the middle of the bench out. So when I was out to let the students to sit back on their sit, the guy that sat with me at the last class was about to come. I allowed him to pass through before I sit back. I also show my behsong face to him, but he said 'thank you' and pass me. I thought I heard some guilt there, maybe not. lol... I'm evil at that moment... 

But this small moment just made my mood bit better. It's ridiculous, I know. Antisocial people have feelings too, okay. Just be careful and don't insult people so much. Or don't insult or offend people in general. Be bit open. and back to me too. Need to get out of my own shell.

Peace out (Y)

Both mother daughter are sick

4/1/2014
After I was back from Pulau Ketam, I still have diarrhea. But that day early in the morning, mommy suddenly woke up in the middle of the morning with sudden massive headache or maybe feeling dizzy. So she got up and take her usual meds, which was her high blood pressure med and some other kind which I don't really know of.

In the morning, I still have a bit diarrhea, but not as bad as previous day. One thing for sure that I was super hungry. Coincidentally my mom got her medical appointment in near Kelana Jaya. I had to fetch her there, cause since she don't really felt well at that time. My diarrhea could wait. After drop my mom at the clinic, she told me to buy porridge from a dim sum shop near by. So I went and buy.

After buying, I also bought Coca cola, cause the day before, my mom told me that Coke have some carbon component, so could absorb the gas in my stomach. After I bought all the food I needed, I went back to the clinic and find parking. Then I took my time to drink my can of coke.

I went in to the clinic after I finished my coke. Just drink one can felt so full.. haha.. I needed to wait a few minutes cause she went in to see the doctor. After that, I saw her expression was quite bad.. like her headache had gotten worst.

During the afternoon, my mom manage to eat some of the porridge. I also didn't go much toilet, maybe I still eat much?

Afternoon, ah Tat gor and Pearl jie came and visited my mom. Then bro too worried, so he brought her to a clinic where he normally go went he/Pearl is sick, cause he could claim from just insurance. I was about time going, cause of my diarrhea. But I didn't cause bro said I already had diarrhea for 3 days, so I should be recovering soon.

When bro, mom and Pearl in clinic, dad got back. His face was a bit pissed off, most probably he was worried for my mom. Before he came back. I normally go to go the room interval around half and hour to check on mom. When dad was home. He was always by my mom side to make sure she was okay. Take care of when she was in the toilet. So like after dinner, I took turns to keep an eye on my mom. End up I just lay next to my mom and watch youtube's videos. Then almost 10.30pm, I caught by my father that I watched video.. hmmm... fine.. I'm not a good girl =\

5/1/2014
around 12am, my dad got really worried, so end up brought my mom to Asunta Hospital punya ER. We everyone(dad, Teng bro and me) waited quite long, could say around 2 hours.

The doctor needed around 1 hour observed my mom.

I think I left out something important. When she already had her dizziness and headache, her blood pressure was pretty. It was almost 150. And it didn't seems it reduce, that's why my dad was super worried and try to convince my mom to go Asunta to check was wrong.

In the end, the doctor said my mom was alright, can go back home and rest. I was like WTF. Then why she has dizzy head and suffering badly.

We got home around 2am and everyone tried to sleep. In the morning, dad went marketing. So Teng bro and me clean the house. After dad came back from market, he instructed Teng bro to clear up the meat. I also sometimes will need to take care of mom.

In the previous few posts, I mentioned that I am one of the organization of d2y cny carolling. So that day was a Sunday, I couldn't make it. I felt so bad.. But heard from other people that the attendance was quite good until got 40. I didn't see them myself. Since I couldn't go, I've asked WeiLin to help me to bring my radio there.

About my diarrhea, I could say that time I was starting to be okay. Cause only went toilet less than 5 times to poop.

for dinner, I cooked white porridge for my mom. She managed to eat a bit. Bro and dad eat left over noodles that dad bought for breakfast and lunch.

6/1/2014
so this day was my 1st day of college for ACCA. And I was worrying about my mom at the same time.

Later I found out that she went to see Dr. Chong, close friend with my dad, I also usually see him if I'm sick when I was a kid, in Puchong.

Dr. Chong said that she was too stress from work, that's why she got headache and high pressure.

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So yeah... when I type this, is already few days already... I only type those happening that I could remember. So yeah..

Progress test 2 week + Inferno

This freaking whole week I have progress. I admit that I didn't study or focus much on studying.

Monday was tax paper. Haiz... I know that I won't be sound well cause I didn't really study for it.

Tuesday off, cause is audit paper, and I didn't take audit. So almost that whole day I was procrastinate, big time.

Wednesday is finance paper, and is MCQ and computer based, so the results was instant. And I got miserable 52 marks. Haiz...

Thursday, management paper. Damn... 58 marks... haiz... I was hoping finance and management paper get more than 60.

Friday, my last paper, finance management paper. Screwed the theory question. Screw all the theory question in tax paper too.

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Since is the paper, I planned to make myself happy. Cause I been keep waiting for people to bring me to watch movie in cinema. Plan not suitable with friend, so always cancelled or postpone until God knows when. My bro also can't really bring my cause I need to focus on exam.

Haiz... so I have a boring life and Always sneakily go watch YouTube's videos.
So after my FFM paper, I went to watch Inferno, a Hong Kong movie. I actually quite like to watch Hong Kong movie, but I don't have much friends that fancy them.

I can't wait for my bro, so I watch it myself. Mostly now, I watch Cantonese movie alone. Once during CNY (I think) , my mom made plan with her friends in One Utama, and I came along cause my main purpose was to watch Cold War and it was acted by Aaron Kwok and other Hong Kong star. Yeah, I watch that because of him. Can't help it when I'm a fan of his since I'm a kid.

I didn't know that Inferno is related with fire. I thought that this movie would be a comedy cause is starring Louis Koo and Sean Lau. Cause most of the movie that they cast in mostly comedy.

When I started watch I was like.. Oh... inferno is related to fire... but to be honest... the movie is not bad. I actually quite like it and I cried a lot in some scene. Scenes are so touching. GO BROTHER LOVE!!

Team building @ Sunway TES

Team building was organized by Sunway Tes colab with Leap. I think.
Morning class was as usual.

At first I don't feel like going. Planning to escape after signing my attendants. Haiz... I end up wait until 4, still...

I have 4 hours to spend before the event had started. So Wei Lin and me planned to go Pyramid to eat porridge, since other people in our gang went back home and later will be back. While walking there, we actually walked with some of our classmates, and they invited us to join them at Burger Kings. Since was like bigger crowd.

BK had offer of RM2 one burger, but it will only start selling from 12pm... That time we went, was like 11am. Wei Lin too hungry, so we didn't wait till 12pm. In the end, we bought a set that cost RM6. Quite reasonable price.

After eating, I bought Starbucks. Cause feeling like drinking a frap.

Haiz... I wanted to just stay in our class room to study... but I got a feeling that Wei Lin don't really like to atmosphere there. But I don't like the library.. Cause I kinda can't concentrate when people walk around.

I only manage to study a bit, but not much

Okay... Let's cut all the crap and begin with my experience

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We sign our attendants, then Jia Wern, Chun Yu and Naren came. They sign already and also plan to leave. I also influenced by them to leave and prepared to leave. When we were back in our class, Wei Lin was in her guiltyself and keep thinking whether should skip this event. She even called her mom for permission, and her mom had allowed (surprisingly). So I was like prepared to leave already.

Then WL, still feel super guilty, and said, she go to MPH (multi purpose hall) to see if not much people she'll go. When we reach there and she saw Pei Qian, she straight away felt more guilty and stand on and leave the hall instant to take her bag in our class. So left me with Pei Qian.

Now I felt kinda betrayed, at that time. I wanted to leave already, but Pei Qian already stop me from leaving. damn.... I'm stuck there and my bag was still in our class... The first thing went in my mind was "will i get my bag", "hopefully they won't lock the door" and started swearing in my mind and my facial isn't show quite good

When the event started, I quickly sms Jia Wern to just leave my bag in the class without worries when I actually quite worried myself.

We play a few games.. 1st is just warming up which was just dance chicken dance.
I don't really have the mood, cause of my bag and at the same time I was sms Jia Wern.

Then the 2 activity was grouping, you know, like the game squirrel and tree?? This time was girls as RM1 and guys as RM0.50. So have to group up as the amount as the MC's shout out amount. It was kinda intense

3rd avtivity was really grouping all of us to 6 groups and form group name, cheer. and following a game. is hard to explain here. but i try...

Form a cirle without letting go our hands and facing inside the circle, then need to find ways to make the circle turn inside out.

Kay, next game was line chairs in a line. Everyone need to stand on one chair.

heehee... Then I get to know and talk some new people... man.... he was hot!! xD

anyway... so the game was like have to arrange accordingly without moving the chairs or adding it and without falling out of the chairs.

For example, the MC say, arrange from tallest to shortest. Then we all arrange. and it goes on...

I didn't stayed long, cause at the same time I was worrying my bag.

I actually have lots of fun during the team building session