Little Herbal Tea

Today, I don't feel like going to campus to study like I normally do, but end up I procrastinate like hell, almost the whole day. Last few days that I don't have class, I normally will go campus to study. Then I found out, I spend lot of money on food. So today I plan not to go and stay home.

During lunch, my mom suggest that we try out the Little Herbal Time in Taman Megah. The shop was used to be Secret Recipe. I wanted to try some western food. Sadly there don't serve it today, on break what they say.

Sizzling Peppermint

I love peppermint. This drink is nice. Like sourness and minty feeling. Just bit too much ice

Mango Goji Pudding and Ginger Tea

My mom wanted to try the ginger tea. It's a bit too spicy for my taste. Maybe I'm just not used to it.

Pudding~~ I'm not really a fan of bitter. This pudding, it has some yong sum so. So... The pudding is not bad in general. I'm just not used to the bitterness from the roots.

Hai Nan Chicken Rice

Claypot Lao Su Fun

I enjoyed my meal. I would go next time here, and I would like to try their wild honey lime drink and western food for sure. hmmm... I post the food here, since don't feel like posting in Instagram or facebook. So just short update here.

Piece out (Y)

Am I that weird???

This semester I'm taking F8 and F4... No need to say. I'm going solo on F4. I kinda made a friend, a foreign student, in F8 cause coincidently that I was at the same class as her in P2. 

So I normally go early to class to book a sit for myself and her at the same time for F8. One day, I went to book, couldn't find a place that could sit 2 person. So went up sitting at the back. Later, I think she didn't see me at the back. End up I sitting alone. The next few classes, she didn't find me to sit with already. She find the other classmate that sit bit front. 

The next few classes, I tried to sit near them, hopefully she saw me or something. Those few classes, I sat around the same group of guys. My classroom is like auditorium like, benches sit. One day, I went and book a sit for myself. I already saw the guys bag at their sit and I saw that there was few available space. So I sat there and mind my own business. 

When the guys came back from lunch. The guy that was about to sit next to me was having big reaction. Like sending a message to his friends that he don't want to sit with me. And he thinks I didn't see his reaction or I don't get his reaction. 

Maybe I'm just being paranoid or something. He might not be talking about me. But the feeling isn't nice. It feel super awful. At that moment I keep convince myself that he isn't talking about me, even part of me might ask keep myself "Am I that bad??"

During our class, my lecturer wanted to the students to discuss in pairs about what she had just taught in class. In his gang, the guy next to him is the odd one out. I could see that his buddies was like, "dude... you gotta pair with her". By judging his face was like "Shit...". End up, he discussed with his friend that sat behind him. Then I tried to have some discussion with another pair of girls that sat in front of me.

I know it will happen to anyone. Like you think that 'this is my territory'. Of cause, when someone you don't know happen to be in the territory, you will be caution and think that the other party was like strange creature that you wanted to avoid and ignore them.

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Then during the break, I went to cafeteria. Don't want to be around that group of people at that moment. So after I bought my coffee and saw the foreign student that I was friend with eating some fried chicken with her other buddy. I thicken my skin (I'm a shy kid, okay) and just join them. I got introduce to the other buddy and ask whether that I could sit with them next class. Permission accepted. Yay!

The next class, I purposely don't want to go class early to book a sit for myself. When I reached the class bit later, I already saw the group of guys and my friend was already there. The guys sat bit more behind and my friend sat more to the front. So I show them the fine-I-could-sit-here-dont-need-to-sit-next-to-you look and sat with my friends. And of cause, I felt much better. 

Small moment of revenge for myself. During this break, I went and bought coffee at cafeteria and I bum to that guy, and I pretend I didn't see him. Back to class, I was sitting at the side, I need to let myself out the allow the students that sat in the middle of the bench out. So when I was out to let the students to sit back on their sit, the guy that sat with me at the last class was about to come. I allowed him to pass through before I sit back. I also show my behsong face to him, but he said 'thank you' and pass me. I thought I heard some guilt there, maybe not. lol... I'm evil at that moment... 

But this small moment just made my mood bit better. It's ridiculous, I know. Antisocial people have feelings too, okay. Just be careful and don't insult people so much. Or don't insult or offend people in general. Be bit open. and back to me too. Need to get out of my own shell.

Peace out (Y)

Brighter side of my 20th birthday

Judging by yesterday's post, it's sound so sad. Maybe not so. Maybe. I got home, ignore my dad and mom, I went to my room and try to take a nap since I can't go out anyway. My bro came in and confirm that I was still going or not. At that moment, I had no mood to see anyone. Was already cover my face with blanket and told him I was not going anymore, since yesterday I actually as him to be my chaperon. Even, when my dad, I think, cause I haven't lift the blanket off at that time, went toilet. He didn't even bother asking anything or wish me anything. I thought I had finish crying in the car. Nope, I was wrong... After he left the room, I burst again... Man... Maybe I'm having PMS, my mood runs wild. 

Anyway, after awhile, mom came up and call us for dinner. Dinner was quiet... Then I look around while eating, I noticed there was an empty can of evaporated milk inside the small dustbin next to the sink.

After my father ate finish, he just left the kitchen. I actually no appetite to eat at that moment, so was eating super slow. Then I asked my mom, is she making cheesecake. And yes, she was. Then I was feeling bubbly inside and happy at the same time.

She asked last week that what would I like to eat for my birthday. I thought it was about where to eat out. But she corrected me by saying what I her to make me for my birthday. Last few years, I have been requesting 生日面 and fried chicken. So I thought I wanted something different. I remember a figment that when I was super young, I like the cake she made. All I remember was there was a biscuit base and jelly on top. I also hearing from my brother or mom before that it takes quite some effort. So I jokingly told her no need to make it, just stick with the noodles and fried chicken. I didn't expect that she went to Giant and bought the ingrents to make the cheesecake for me when I was at workshop yesterday. 

And also after I finally finish my dinner, I was about to see the last part making of the cake. 

I took most of the picture for snapchat. So there was more pictures and some videos. 

After placing the cake into the fridge, and quickly went back to my room and procrastinate bit before going to shower. Mom came in bit later, cause she wanted to rest a bit more in the kitchen (there's a ceiling fan, that's why)

When I was about middle of procrastinate, Stephanie called my mom. I was actually next to her. My mom asked me whether want me to pick up or not pick up. She knew that I was upset. So I told her to just pick up and told her beforehand that I was not available if she asked for me. I was glad that she didn't put it loudspeaker when she spoke. But I still could hear a bit and figure out a bit. I was surprised that they would come all the way from 1Utama to my part of PJ. Of cause at that time, she was hesitating since my dad was at home. And I don't want then to see him. So I suggested to go playground or something. After she ended the call, I quickly took a shower and my mom helped my a bit to clean last minutes part of kitchen in case they wants to drink some sugar cane drink they had boil during the afternoon or to eat the cheesecake that my mom made few moments ago. Later on, I felt like playground is not a good idea, cause they might bring cake and need plate and we stick to the kitchen if we have too. So she wash the guest cups and I wash small plates if they brought cake. 

So.... When everything settled already, I wait anxiously at my study table while my

father was at the living room scrolling through his iPad. I was already no mood to study to I just look through my phone too. I think my father sense that I'll be having guest later, so he also left the living room and didn't left the bedroom since. So I thought he was giving me some consideration. 

And they finally came!!! I'm happy for sure. Even brought a cake

Hey, the thoughts counts. We sang birthday song and all of us share this piece of cake. We chat bit more. They didn't stay long, but I really appreciate they came here to meet me. And tomorrow, which now is today, is PuiYan's birthday. 

I think friendship like that are hard to find. So we need to appreciate while we can and have it. 

Live the moment and you never know unknown event might made your day 

Peace out (Y)

Emotional birthday, I guess

Hello... Just need some place to vent.

Yeah, today's my birthday. And it the year that I entering the age of 20. I literally typing this post in a playground parking lot near my place. Cause I don't feel like going home at the moment. Can't believe that I feel like that and also fingers are shaking at typing because how emotionally sad. 

This morning, I'm actually quite excited a bit, cause might be celebrating my birthday with my secondary school friends. Yeah, you heard me, MIGHT.. Last night I got a call from Stephanie that TODAY night will be hanging out with their buddies. I was kinda felt happy cause whenever see their pictures when they hangout, tiny part of me is jealous. I can't help and see them from far.

So coincidently that my dad from outstation came back yesterday afternoon. When Stephanie called me, I agreed without hesitation knowing that my dad will get mad about it. 

My mom and brother kinda celebrate early, cause we know my dad don't really like these kind of stuff. For example, eating out, celebrate birthdays, I hanging out with friends cause he will think that I'll  spend money like nobody's business. Moreover, the economic now in Malaysia is super bad and I need to spend extra money for my own education since I fail more papers. He also hated that I waste time. 

Just now, I just finish my workshop for the coming finals I'm taking in September. During class, my mom suddenly Whatsapp me and said that my dad disagree me to go. After I saw the message, my mood was slightly better than normal days drop to deep sea of ocean. 

This brings me the memory of last year, Ruby's wedding after party. Pearl's friends try to convince my dad to let me go and he reluctantly say yes, then quietly say no after they were out of ear shot. 

When I almost few meters away from home, suddenly I got a feeling that I don't feel like going home just yet. Just not ready to see his face. 

So instead turning to the road that lead home, I turned to other junction and drive to the playground car park. 

Once reach the carpark, I turn off the engine and air cond, but leave the sound system playing songs from my pen drive. I also straight away adjust my sit to lying position. I didn't know I was so emo. 

Looking out the window, see the pink and white flowers on the trees and my father's last night words playing in my mind again. And thinking of my fail papers. Without realizing... I burst to tears.

After I settle a bit, then I know I need a place to vent these thoughts and feelings. Since I'm still kinda embarrassed to see my family at the moment.  

Haha, while typing this post, it starts to rain and it kind look pretty

Of cause after typing, thinking and listening to favourite songs playing in the stereo. It's a bit ridicules to cry and frustrated over that can't celebrate my birthday with friends. But of cause I would like to live the moments. I still have other years to live and celebrate with them. 

Okay... I think I'm kinda okay and feeling okay. Through out when I type this post, surprising that my radio played the songs that were emotional and currently is playing "Be Your Everything" by Boys like Girls. And yeah I'm ready to go home now, it's almost that I'm here almost an hour. Gonna drive back and face the day. Again. 

Peace out (Y) 

Early Birthday Celebration

 Yay!!! My actual birthday is actually coming Sunday (16.8.2015). My mom decided that we'll celebrate early, because that my dad might be coming back on that day and I have class that day. I forgot to mention in the last post saying that I'm also taking workshop for F5 and F9 on every weekends. *boohoo... my happy weekends is gone* Haiz... I deserve that pricey punishment.... 

Yesterday, my mom actually planned to cook dinner, but when she came back from her lunch date, it was already quite late and she needed to rush to her tuition class. So end up we ate dinner out. After pick up bro, we went Paradigm and ate Pasta Zanmai.

Fruit tea. I like this :)

I forgot the take the before I mixed the sauce together. This is delicious

Since I was already in Paradigm Mall, so I thought of buy some skin care products in discount from Facebook, since it's my birthday month. I'll get 30% discount. So I stocked up some that I needed and some extras.. haha

This is what I bought and another face mask, which I kept in the fridge. So I didn't take out. Mom paid for these and it cause quite a bit. The cleansing foam it's the birthday present given by the shop. So yeah... Mom also bought herself a lipstick and I forgot to buy some hair serum.... hmph..

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Today, my brother took 2 weeks off starting today. So my mom thought of going NU Sentral. Every since last time, I've been nagging to go there again, cause I found "Bath and Body Works". We ate The Manhattan Fishmarket for dinner. We actually wanted to Tony Roma's. haha... But I overslept from my afternoon nap. Oops... End up we missed the Time Out promotion. 

perfect catch

I enjoyed my dinner. Yay!!

Next stop!! Bath and Body Works. WAHAHAHA... I went crazy with the body mist. My mission in there was buy one body mist for myself. 

Normally, I would use my angpao money to buy something for my birthday. And so, this year, I choose to some of it in body mist. The smaller bottle is chosen by my mom and I also bought it for her since it's just within my budget. Last 2 years, I bought myself BTS albums. It's worth it. Haha :)

I'm a Happy Kid these two days. Yay!! ❤

Peace Out (Y)

After my July 2015 ACCA results decision

Last term ACCA results out at 1st of August. The results was out early because there is new exam coming up on September.

I was already planned to take my F5 paper on the coming September. I don't know I mentioned on the last post. I might not. The last finals, I expect that I would pass my F7 and F4 papers, and might fail F7 because I didn't manage to finish my paper. When the results was out, I was bit shocked that the results show the opposite. F7 pass and fail F4 F5... hmph...

I was already attending P2 and F8 classes. So I need to figure out what to do. Since my F9 paper is 46, I going to take it on September with my F5. F4 and F8 gonna take it on December.

At first, I don't know whether that I should drop P2. When I seek for advise with the admin staff. Actually I wanted to discuss with them about my progress test, cause it clashes with my classes. End up discussing about my results. So that's why. Anyway, I didn't know that I need 4 F papers to pass in order to take P papers. That's what made me to make the decision to drop P2 class.

Actually I wanted to self study for F4 again, but again... admin advise me to take classes again... hmph... kinda no say about it... So I just sucked it up and I'm gonna attend the classes for F4. Which means this is gonna be my third time attending F4 classes. I'm pathetic =_=

Haiz... What life I have....

anyway. Peace Out (Y) and wish me luck