Why I never learn?

I have no idea why. I know exactly if I don't revise ASAP, I will fail the coming F6 paper. 

Damn.... I really hate myself on this. I keep looking at my phone. Like my body got two side, one say "come, come, let's watch some video", cause don't feel like studying (damn, I'm such a dumbass)

Another say, "girl!!! Gonna study, if not you gonna fail again!!!"

Yet again, my bad side won. Now I regret. But can't cry over spoil milk. I already didn't do well in all progress test and mock exam. Until I have to see the boss. 

And I'm suppose to sleep now, but too mad at myself and nervous for tomorrow's paper which I'm not prepared, again. Argh!!!!! Why can't I just stop doing reckless stuff???

My 1st acca paper

Look at my face!!! It doesn't good news. I think I'm gonna fail F5. I can't do the paper!! Out of 5 questions, I only know how to do 1. 1!!! F***ing ONE!!! I'm so disappointed at myself. 

Damn... My mom also quite. Nope. Very disappointed in me too. Argh.... I very scared if everyone pass and except me didn't pass. So embarrassing. This is the payment of not studying when I should be studying. 😭😭😭😭😭

Happy Birthday mommy!! ❤️❤️

Haha. At the same day, my mom also do dumpling cause 端午节 is coming. 

In the morning, my bro came back from Beijing visit us with Pearl. So I suppose to study but I can't seems to concentrate. Bad habit. 

My bro brought work here to do, so he also could spend time with my mom. At the same time, Pearl helped my mom on wrapping the dumpling. Mom already prepared the ingredients yesterday and a bit more this morning. 

Afternoon... It went pass so fast!! I hardly study for finals for next 2 days. Haiz.... Now I damn panic now. At 5pm, I went took a nap, I set alarm 5.30pm. End up, yes, I set off the alarm and continue nap. Then 7pm something I only finish woke up. 

For dinner, at first Tat gor gor said wanna eat out for dinner. Then later said didn't want to eat cause he already ate 2 dumplings. Mom said, "okay la, we can eat dumplings."

Tat gor gor and Pearl jie jie secretly went out and bought a birthday cake. I got a feeling he was a bit guilty cause he missed Mother's Day. They came back, they bought cake from Berry's. And we actually celebrated early since Tat gor won't be around on mom's actual birthday. So it's technically early birthday. 

Then we sang and blew candles!! But before blowing, we saw make a wish. At that moment, a pang of guilt washed over me and I somehow got a feeling that she would wish for me to pass finals smoothly. 

It went well, we eat cake and dumpling for dinner. We had a nice time. 

Anyway, I love you very much, mommy!! Happy birthday!! May you be healthy and well :)

I should be preparing for finals

I should be preparing for finals. But I just wanna post this small piece of my mind

While studying, my fringe is kinda bothering me. So I just thought of just plait a small one. But it look very weird.

Then I remember during my secondary school times, my friend Elisha used to plait her fringe to the side. During that time, I kept trying, but failed cause I couldn't cordinate my hands/fingers to go which way. That time I gave up. 

So I gave it a tried. And I kinda managed. But since it is my first few times, it's messy if see from the back. 

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When I was young, my mom used to tied French plait. That time I hate it very much, cause after untying it, my hair will be very curly. That's why I don't like when my mom try to attempt or after she finish tying, I quickly untie done, so my hair don't look so curly. 

But when I tried yesterday on just my fringe and continue a bit from the side of my head. It didn't look bad. Is just that only imba

I wear this for the whole night until morning 2am. When I remove it, it didn't look curly. That's why I tried plait my hair again today XD

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Okay!!! I ciao now!!! Must study for finals!!! Wish me luck and try not to be distracted with YouTube, videos and other social media. What makes things worst that I just got interested in another idol and I can't stop thinking about him or find articles about him. Great.... Now I sound like a stalker. 

Okay I must go now before I drag more time. I only left 3 more days till finals. And I didn't prepare much. Bye!