Showing posts with label guilty. Show all posts
Showing posts with label guilty. Show all posts

Wednesday, June 4, 2014

Last paper for this sem

Hahaha.... Heeheehee.. Yes... I finish my F6 paper yesterday, actually. Yesterday was too tired to post and watching running man until 1ish. 

After finish the paper, I felt kinda happier than when I finish F5. Cause I manage to attempt most part. But of cause I can't guarantee myself that I could pass or not. Since the night before I really slack very bad. And yes... I watched 1N2D, that's why. That's why I was pissed at myself at the last post. 

Before the exam, I actually planned to stay in my car until it was time to go. But people been walking passed my car a few times already. I start thinking weird thoughts, like why she stay in the car study? Something like that. 

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The day when I took F5 paper, I also at first stayed in the car until 1.45pm then only start walk to campus then to library. And I expected. Every where is crowded with students. I actually didn't plan to study in library, since I got the expectation that it will be full and I lazy to walk up 3 floors. By luck that time I found a table. 

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This time, I walk 3 rounds around the library, both floors!!! Damn... But finally, I managed to fun. So no complain after that. 

The paper was kinda, or I hope that, half half know how to do. I hope this time I could pass. When the paper end, I went back kinda light hearted :)

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When I was kinda on the way out of the parking lot and I was kinda on the turning to a sloop to upper floor(cause exit is the next floor), I got a call from WL. She asked me about having dinner at Pyramid. 

My first thought was why didn't invite me earlier, then I got time to prepare myself, like have enough cash(that time I only left like less than RM10) and won't be on the way out to go home!!

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Anyway, I turned down the late invitation. And I also told my mom to just cooked. Since I still feel guilty about all the time before the exams. So I don't want and expensive food, case they will make me feel super guilty.

But at the same time, I had in mind to eat A&W ice cream waffles, since it had been long time I haven't eaten them. So my bro and mom were up to it. And we went for supper. 

By the time we got to A&W, the parking lot was FULL and the line was LONG. So we chance plan and I was disappointed. Since I feel like eating something hot, cold and sweet at the same time. 

But bro said go some where near Damansara got pork burger. So I said why not, since we were out already. On the way, we passed by a newly renovated shopping mall, Jaya. It is next to Digital Mall and opposite Jaya 33. When I was young, my family used to go there offen. 

Yet again, we chance the plan to see the shopping mall and see anything to eat for supper, if not we'll have plan B, which was McDonalds. 

Anyway, the shopping mall was half open. I was half disappointed. Cause not much restaurant open yet. My bro so excited when he found out that Texas Chicken is gonna open there and I found Gong Cha. 

Then I was like, let's have Gong Cha, since I keep hearing good things about them and I love winter melon drinks. We also came across a bakering shop that sells some of buns for RM1.50. And I choose Portugese bread.

Then we ordered Signature Winter Melon milk tea(mine), Signature Green Tea milk tea(mom) and Basil Seeds Winter Melon /w Lemon. I actually wanted to try both of the winter melon. Haha!!!!!

Then we enjoy the drink and the food there. I love the winter melon and basil seeds, it gives a refreshing feeling. The signature winter melon, at first it was nice, slowly until the end, the foam milk or butter, whatever you might called it, then I didn't quite liked it. End up I keep stealing my bro's drink. Hahahahah!!!

At the end of the day, I didn't get disappointed with food and watched one episode of Running Man. ;) 

Wednesday, January 1, 2014

New year cray cray 2014

Happy 2014 everyone!!! Haha, it sound somehow strange maybe I still not used to it yet. Later sure okay.

So how I spend my last few moments of 2013 and the beginning of 2014, to me, it sounds crazy.

I thought I would just hang around at Kah Sheong's place till count down, and chill again then go PeiYan's house to sleepover. But sadly, it's not what I thought as innocent as it could be.

Here it goes, supposedly we planned go be in 1 Utama. Then change of plans cause scared can't find parking and of cause later will broke super traffic jam.

So I heard, Kah Sheong offered to that we could countdown in his place. Or more like see fireworks.

We meet up at his house at 6pm. But as a typical Malaysian, I was like, due to my bro wants me to follow him buy baskets robins, since yesterday had the 31% discount and plus the terrible jam, I reach there around 6.30pm

People who were joining for dinner was PeiYan, Tim, Kah sheong, Bryant, Clarissa, JiaXin, PuiYan, and YiVon. So we gather everyone, we go Kota Damansara for dinner. The restaurant was a nyonya restaurant and was recommended by KahSheong, so there's a high expectations. Hahaha.... the food was delicious, sadly I didn't take any photos during any time. I think we ordered sweet chicken, egg, basil squid, kang kung and petai prawns. Everyone paid around RM18.

After dinner, we went back KS's house to chill until fireworks starts exploding. 1st thing we did was playing cards. we played 'chur dai ti'. surprisingly I play twice I win twice, Haha, I didn't know.. lol.. Since when I'm so SS? after cards, we watched Grown Ups 2. Wow... really, the tv, really damn awesome, cause is super clear, like a bit of 3D. Is awesome to watch with friends. Haha. When we were watching half way, suddenly KS's mom and his maid took out some snacks for us to watch while eating and KH keep refill our tea... man... that time I was so pai seh...

Now is time to watch fireworks, haha... since I had injured my leg, I can't watch fireworks... Haha, lame right... I was like digging my own grave. I can't watch, because need to climb up a ladder to get a clear view, actually at KS's house, we could see fireworks from Curve, so that's pretty awesome. Damn... why I fracture my foot last week... then I won't miss this awesome chance for watching fireworks.

Actually during dinner time, one thing my foot starts getting worst, cause when the girls taking selfies, I was standing at the back, so I tip toed, Lol... after that I realised that I insert too much pressure on the fracture, so the after effect was super pain. Damn....

later, we took lots of selfies photos, the photos is with PeiYan. So Yeah.. I think this post is just me describing, no pictures.

I was actually surprised that PeiYan, Clarissa, and PuiYan planned to go pub!! At least they could have told me about this. So I could at least prepare myself mentally. I told myself that I would never ever go to pub, but end up going... Lol... so that time, I was a bit mad at them... but at the same time, couldn't mad at them, their my best buds..

So... I actually didn't expect KS coming with us, cause I remember the last time I went for Comic Fiesta, Michelle mentioned that KahSheong can't really stand too loud music, cause that time, got stage and they play pretty loud, that's why she mentioned. Oh ya... before I continue. The people that's joining us in the pub were PeiYan, PuiYan, Clarissa, Tim and KahSheong. We went with 2 cars.

Yeah... it was pretty crowded... we end up went to Molavoid.. I think... dang... I think I got the names wrong. Haha... don't care... anyway... I was half surprised myself that we need to pay to go in. Lol.. I'm such a noob in this. But if we paid for the drinks it won't be so expensive. End up, we paid RM 50 per person. Cause the liquor is cost RM 300. So yeah...

When I 1st went in, I didn't like it, cause the smoke smell was damn strong. Music was damn loud. But slowly I could adjust to the surroundings. In the beginning, I was so awkward, cause I'm holding a quite huge hand bag, my foot was injured, so I couldn't really jump much. After a few songs, I only started to join the fun, which was just bang my head and bend my knees...

I only drank a bit, and the rest, I just drink sodas. So I'm still clear head till the end. I feel bad and guilty at the same time, cause, Tim and KS looks like took turns to rest outside so at least inside, got at least one guy looking after us. And both of them pretty drunk, cause since, most of the girls are driving. I think KS helped us drink, and got very drunk. Tim drank 3 shots, as he claim he drank that much and also starts crashing.

After the party ended, Tim already starts crashing down. KahSheong and PuiYan follow PeiYan's car, and Tim and I follow Clarissa's car, but I'm driving, cause Clarissa herself was dizzy. Gosh... I was so scared to drive her car, cause I wasn't used to it.

While Cla and me try to carry Tim to her car, he stop at HongLeong bank. Since he was too drunk to move on. So we let him, chill down or do whatsoever he need to get a bit more sober. Yeah, he starts to throw up. And he keep blaming himself for the cause he had done, he's a whipped, he's a failer..

Dude.. why drunk people always blame themselves for everything and is not actually their fault.

Anyway, I thought they would like to drink water to clear up, I went to the nearest mamak stall and bought 2 mineral bottles. So I bottle we try to wash or wake Tim up and the other is to drink. Or something like that.

Then later on, Cla and me don't know what to do. So we call PeiYan for help. End up she fetch back KS and Tim back to KS's house.

So I sleepover in Peiyan's place. I wash my hair, I still can smell the smoke out of my hair. Cla also sleepingover with us. We reached peiyan's around 5, I guess.......sleep around 6 and I woke up 8am something and started typing this blog...

Haha, then I realised that Ah Teng gor also have new year celebration and left mom at home. I also guilty that I left her alone at home.

Yet again, another crazy experience happened in my life

Friday, December 27, 2013

Bad things happening this month

December is coming to an end, and I just wanna reflect on myself for what I did.

1. CAT finals
Yup, my last 2 papers of CAT paper, I admit, I didn't really seriously study for it and panicked on the last few days cause I wasn't constantly studying.

If I didn't pass my FTX and FFM, I'm not surprise and very disappoint at myself. But I managed to pass my FFA and FMA. so is kinda 2 and 2 to go.

And!! I also paid for the fees for my ACCA tuition fees, if I really didn't pass, the fee of the lesson I took for it will burn, if I didn't pass.

2. D2YC. Ready Set Action!
I'm also took part in helping out in this camp. And also I'm holding a kinda big post, f&b. At 1st I wasn't planning to join d2yc this year, but I was so happened I did f&b for D2Y PAD (parent's appreciation day). So one of the seniors of d2y also try to convince to do for camp, *sigh* and I took it.

That time I was super upset at myself for taking it cause, my finals was super close with the camp dates and I can't really focus for finals, in some ways. My mom also worried about me, cause I spend too much time on thinking what to do for camp and the preparation on f&b before camp.

Anyway, back to my point of f&b in d2yc 2013. Some days it went smoothly, some days committees don't have enough to eat, some days have too much left overs, some days I made milo drink and only a few participants came down to drink and left almost 1 and an half kettle left.

I'm really grateful to all the sponsors I got from KK people. Without them, I dont think dana or talentime will go smoothly. And also some committees that helped out in kitchen, even thou is just cutting fruits, wash a bit here and there. I also appreciate those committees hang around in the canteen or kitchen, at least I know I was not alone and keep me a bit of accompany.

I feel so stupid on the ghost activity. My brain go imagine weird stuff when I'm actually in charged in one particular station, and was in the kitchen. I already hate to be alone while working, and now it gives me weird imagination in the kitchen.

Here we go, what actually happened was, we were trying out what sound to make in the kitchen to scare the participants in the dark. I was I little scared for myself already. When Zhi Xuan off the lights, I was standing next to Zhong Jin, and he was wearing a black tee. At his sleeves got printed words, I mistaken that as a hair of a girl and I screamed, damn loud. Later, I found out, I felt so embarrassed. During that time, I was in a okay-can-talk with Zhong Jin, now I'm like super awkward with them... *sigh* Then later, Zhi Xuan take over my position. Oh ya, my partner for this was Yong Le.

End up, I scared myself, I was pull out, kinda, from being a 'ghost' and be in a safe place with Emily and some of the seniors.

I apologies, even thou they might not see this, for the times I might made you all mad or don't cooperate.

During times, when I'm not in kitchen, I feel super awkward and out of place whenever I join hymn or workshops or discussions. Because mostly almost everyone will be in their groups or gang. So.... Yeah....

But in the end of the camp, I also gain new friends, friends to close friends, close friends to heart to heart friends. Be a bit more brave then usual, I guess?

3. CNY Caroling
Yet, again, I didn't want to take this. And yet again and took the challenge knowing part of me I regretted. A lot of people say that this is a good chance to learn new skills... I know is a good chance to learn, I'm just afraid, later, I can't cope with other things.

Jian Xi, Zhi Xuan and me will be in charge of the caroling. Jian Xi and me never been to caroling, so we are super doom in rhizome field.

At 1st we got problem with booking venue. Then booklets.

No one is taking the booklets from the room where they store things, cause either not free or no transport. So I have no choice to take and at the same time I also need to wait for my neighbors to clear the road cause, my neighbor had open house right in front of my house. so during that time, I could consider myself as no transport since my house gate was blocked by tables and chairs. By the time they cleared, it was almost 4. My bro rushed to bmv, then I rushed to meet sis Bodhi to get the keys and rushed to the room.

Found out I don't have the key to that particular floor, and need to wait for the guy to open. Then I reach that room, I use the wrong key to open the wrong lock, and somehow I broke the freaking key. I managed to pull out the freaking broken piece out and stupidly put that freaking broken piece into the other lock and was stucked inside (means that broken key is for the lock I just put inside). I think because I rushed, the key broke.

When the key freaking broke, I panicked and don't know what to do, and hopefully, when I put th's broken piece, inside the other lock, I could manage to open. Which ends up, stuck inside. So I need to tell sis Bodhi that I broke the key and she helped me called a locksmith. Even the locksmith couldn't take out the broken piece and he had to change the whole lock. That time I panicked and felt guilty that the same time. Damn...

4. 1st caroling
And it was Stephanie's birthday, so we were going to surprise her with a cake and Alex was buying it.
Back to caroling, I didn't expect caroling will be having so few people going. Less than 13 people. Is not what I expected. But it went quite okay despite the number of people.

Continue with Steph. After caroling, then lion dance practise. So when Alex reached, we quickly prepare the cake. When it was done, (cause we light up the candles behind the stage), we kinda rush down the stage, I somehow slipped and fell. I heard a small crack, but that time I pretended nothing happened. And then we surprised Steph, then I went home straight cause my broke already waiting outside.

When I reach the car, the pain starts hitting me and it hurts like hell. Damn... that night, my foot was green/black as hell. Ah Teng even call me Robocop cause I walk limping.

The next morning, after much convinced by my dad, I went hospital to x-ray my freaking foot and found out that I actually fractured my foot.

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I'm not trying to say that I hated these events that happening in my life, even though I always ask myself why these events happened to me and I hated myself for these at times.

But after awhile when I calm down and think for myself and really think on how to solve these problems and challenges.

For me, it takes matter of time for me to realise what's happening and try move on. Things can't always goes what we planned or perfect. There's always a flaw in everything.

Tuesday, September 10, 2013

MTV World Stage

Thanks to my sis-in-law, she manage to get me MTV World Stage tix for this year. I already made my mind  to not go for this year concert after all the time I went for free standing concerts, it had been always a torture.

Moreover, this time the performance I'm not really that keen. Joe Flizzoe (I know I spell his name wrong, didn't bother to google to correct it), I'm okay okay with him. Knew him Showdown (Malaysian's tv dance competition). Then EXO, they have been in the Media, seriously like every where. It been started to grow on me a bit. my friend is totally crazy with them. Far East Movement, I only know Rocketeer. I admit they are still awesome! Robin Thicke, I don't have much to say
Normally I get my ticket from my cousin that worked for the newspaper, but now I can't get cause she been transfer to Beijing to work. Take care!! if you reading.
So this is my story for this year MTV WorldStage.

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My friend, Emily, is super crazy for EXO. So I thought go with her. She waited at the line from 9 in the morning. I couldn't go that early cause I need to follow my mom to marker to buy food for the week.

My sis-in-law drop me off and thanked her and looked for Emily. the place already crowded =/

I lazy to describe all the hay wok in the morning... so let just fast forward to 12pm.

Before I continue, Emily came along with her friend Elin and her sis.
So... around 12 something, Jaq manage to come and join us. Jaq sat with me while waiting for the gate to open. 

Then later, both of us was super reckless and feel like walking around. So we left and I lend my fan (which was my sis-in-law's, remember this, I'll talk about it later) to a random girl who I sat with while waiting.

By random, after we go toilet, we went to canopy walk to see whether that we have chance to see EXO. (that time I'm starting to like them, but not so crazy of them). All we could see is the literally the backstage. So we gave up and continue walk inside the pyramid.

Inside of the shopping mall is kinda the month for selling mooncakes and lanterns since mooncake festival is coming. So suddenly we joke around about buying an electric lantern and bring it inside and light it with sound like crazy people and light up the night.

We thought of going to the Grand Hotel of Sunway to push our luck for seeing them in the hotel. But on the way there, we could see the stage. 

OMG!!! EXO WERE NOT IN THE HOTEL BUT REHEARSING!!! Jaq and me were going crazy!!! We end up staying there quite long just to see them. So far!! but we don't care



in the line for introducing themselves

in the line for introducing themselves

OMG!! at the platform!



OMG!!! the tree pose from WOLF!!!

OMG!!! the tree pose from WOLF!!!
 We manage to watch them rehearsed TWICE!!! OMG!! I was fangirl-ing although I'm not a hardcore fan. I starting to like Sehun <3 cuuutteee="" he="" sooo="">_<

When we return to other spot to line, the place was already hay wok... *gosh*
We barely could find Emily and Elin, but found them... and this is how I lost the fan... when I know that I've lost the fan, 1st thought, will Pearl get mad?? Guilty feeling with excited feeling mixed together. I hesitantly sms her that I lost her fan.. but instead she sms back and said is okay, at least I'm fine, then is alright.. aww... I'm so touch :') man... so love her...

Anyway, here's the torture part. We have been squeezed, pushed and etc. I always hate the moment before the concert. I'm short.. so was kinda having a hard time to breath. We been drench with sweat and rain and most of us (including me, no doubt) were stink as hell. AND, WE BEEN STANDING FOR ABOUT 2 HOURS OUTSIDE WITH THESE CONDITIONS!!! Like I said, I don't like the experience. While waiting, there are thoughts says that I want to leave and don't go in. But end up I stayed =/

I brought a few bread with me, and only ate one piece and left 5. and all 5 have been confiscated. Haiz.... but manage to get through the whole thing still....

About 6, we only manage to get in. Emily and Elin had split up already, so I'm with Jaq. Once we got in, it was like HEAVEN BABY!! We take our time walk to the surf beach.

The middle part of the place was already crowded with people. So Jaq and me went to a place with not much people, yet.

Let me describe the place for you, the place have 2 big screens right?? I was standing in front of the left big screen and next to the stage. BUT, my view was block by a big camera, but we no complaint. Since, we're already desperate with view.

When EXO's Wolf MV was played at the big screen, the fan gone wild!!! =D





Jaq and me. please excuse our ugly face xD

haha, selca


why?? the cubicle??

look at the crowd o_O

the fan that was given


the wrist band





get what I mean??? the huge camera

pretty lights







Joe Flizzoe



EXO IS OUT!!

OMG!!!!! XXXDDDD








OMG!! they're there!! sorry for the blur pics



haha!!! yesh!! I Think I manage to take a photo of Sehun!! xD




OMG!! so close yet so far X)




EXO perform 4 songs, Wolf, History, 365 and Growl.

When they were performing 365, no one was pay attention to the side of the concert except LAY!! OMG!!! I manage to get a clear look of him!! and wave at our crowd!! OMG!! that moment I was like AAAAAHHH!!!!! OOOMMGGG!!!!! Although Sehun was next to him, but he focus more to the front, still I also manage to see a clear view of him xDDD

and at the end of the perform, everyone was like quickly wave, bow, blow kiss, salute bye and stuff to the audience in front. BUT!! LAY!! Stayed awhile and thanking every corner from left and then walked to the platform in front, then to the right side. When I saw that I was like WOAH!! that guy was really sincere!!!! That moment I was feeling amaze by his actions =)

Jaq wanted to left already, so I follow her back out of Sunway Lagoon. And we walk to Sunway Uni, cause Jaq parked her car in Elephant Walk. So I called my bro to pick me up at campus.

OMG!!! although I not really into EXO, but I still have an awesome time during the concert.

Practically, after the concert, my ear had gone slightly deaf from hearing people scream, Jaq really and scream... lol =)