F5 PT2

Last Saturday night(27.09.2014), ah Tat gor gor bring mommy and me to KL. I was excited xD

He wanted to go KL to buy something for his camera stuff. So, for mommy and me, will be doing nothing if we follow him to settle his camera stuff. So he drop us at Sungai Wang. 

We walked around Sungai Wang for few rounds since we don't really know what to shop.

To be honest, I dont have jeans to wear, most of them had been worn out and not comfortable, so I manage to buy one jeans at one of the shop. 

We tried to find iPhone 4 cover. More like those got a flip to cover the phone. We walked almost the whole shopping mall, either it was too expensive or it do not have. 

Lastly, we bought some hair clip for mom and refill loom bands for myself in those accessory shop. 

When it's almost time for dinner time. Ah Tat gor went and bought luggage at Isetan, Lot 10 for Pearl jie, cause they going London soon to visit. Then meet up with ah Teng gor at Lot 10 also. 

Then we walked to Starhill Gallery. Jogoya Buffet Restaurant was the place we are our dinner. Man... The place the expensive.... I mean as in for me. Kinda surprise of the price. But seriously, the food there serve there were also out of my expectation. There was too many things to choose from. And of cause , you have to choose those nice ones. 

Food are good. Seafood are good. ICE CREAM!!! Super good!! Since I don't offen eat Haagen Dazs ice cream. Cookies, awesome. Yeah, almost everything was awesome. Dang it, I forgot to take pictures of the restaurant before I left. 

29.09.14

Today got back my F5 PT2 results. 47!! Dang!!! I know I shouldn't be proud of it. I admit big part of me is super relieved that so damn close to pass. Means, I got hope to pass it, if I work harder enough xD

Peace out (y)

:/

I thought I felt better, since yesterday from the jealousy thingy or something. I even attempt to find buddy to go lunch with. 

Until the night, when I ask for a bit of help for some homework, so I Whatsapp one of my close coursemates which also took this same paper. All she gave was quite short reply and ask me that didn't I read the question that in class did. I read quite few times, I still lost in the question... That's why I ask her. 

After seeing this kind of reply... I said, 'never mind la, I'll figure out myself'. In the end of the day(most of the night) I'm still stuck at that question and no moving forward. Cause I'm still stuck there 

Peace out (y)

Progress test 2 sem 2

Yeah.... Since the last post... I really sounded emo. When I woke up this morning, I'm super glad that the anger from yesterday is gone, most of it. At least, now that I could say, I'm a bit of relief and life's goes on, and feeling many things still need to be done. 

This semester, I currently taking F4, F5 and F9. F5? Thought I only took 2 papers. End up, I actually failed my F5 finals last sem and scored quite low(30). And I took back classes for that paper. So my timetable is back to full pack. Most days having 2 classes, so most of the time like from 8am to 5.30pm, I'll be in campus. 

So yeah... So progress test, I took all 3 papers. Today, I just got my F4 PT2 results. I super upset!!! Now I'm just afraid to see Mr. Teo(sunway tes founder). Last sem, I've seen him, call out from class. That's why I don't like the feeling. Anyway!!! Back to results, this times it's worst than my PT1(40). PT2(28)!! 

I'm so in a danger zone. 

Even the last few days ago, I received in the mail for the notice of Parents and lecturer day. Is something like open day. But this is like for Sunway TES students. Last sem, I hide the letter. Even I hide them, she knew from my CAT graduation. Cause it's like the day after is the day. 

Then few days later that day, that's when my mom have appointment from mr. T's sec. And that day wen she meet up with him, he kinda told her why she didn't went for the parents lecturer day. 

So that's why now, when I received this letter, I hide again. But now there's no point, cause she received it via sms. Wasted my effort. Dang... 

I don't want to her to go again!! Knowing I thought I could do better than sem 1. After I got my results today, (like the an hour ago, when I type this,) I don't think I could not go. Cause she herself felt embarrassed that she been called again, if that happens :/

Why I don't study properly??? I keep telling things like this, but I won't do it. Once again, now I'm saying to myself. I MUST CHANGE!!! 

Peace out (y)

Jealously kills!!!

We human beings have feelings and most of them love to be around people. Even those who are quiet or shy. Just be around people feel nicer then being alone. Sometimes, being awkward is better than being nothing. 

I don't know... Is just.... Haiz... I shouldn't be feeling this, but.... 

Maybe don't have much friends, got a small group of friends, not much close friends. Some of those friends used to be super close, but time pass, those friends got out of touch, even not out of touch, they'll get awkward, somehow. In the end, kinda feel, friends getting lesser and lesser. 

Gosh... I'm getting to sound like desperate for friends. Yes... I admit, I'm desperate, thou some people around me are desperate of their other half. 

Why I'm getting to work up on this? Why I woke up in the morning, scroll down Instagram show some couple of pictures for my close close friends hang out together. Being out for some time... Whenever I saw those pictures, felt sad. I shouldn't be upset, cause they are my friends. They have their own gang. Is not like I do not know everyone, I knew most of them, most of them are pretty close. Like now, most I think I'm not one of them. But in a way, I'm not one of them :/ 

the idea of being left out, hurts....

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After I saw those pics, kinda upset, while driving to campus, coincidently the 1st song was playing "Try again, Smile again" by CN Blue. It cheered me up, but not quite. During lunch, it gotten worst again, cause of the same reason. Not directly, but knowing try hang out, but didn't told me and ask me stuff like they don't know, when I got a feeling they know. On the way back, listened to "Man in Mirror" also by CN Blue, somehow, it sing about friends, like my car, knows was I'm feeling??

~~~notrelated~~~

Sometimes, I even blame myself, why I dot work hard enough, then I might be the same group as other people. If I have study hard enough, then my parents would let me hang out with my friends without hesitantly. If I have been study hard enough, my parents won't keep grounded me to go out with them. If I study hard enough, I would make some white lie for not hanging out, but most of them are true and some other factor. 

Sometimes, when I got the chance to finally to talk to them, but there's sure got one person or thing are distracted and stories are not fully told. 

When in groups are chatting away, I tried to join the conversation, but can't, cause don't know the references at lot. The references I knew, they don't know. Always have a conversation gap everywhere. Majority wins. 

Sometimes, I really like to listen to their stories from the people themselves, but not from third person. In a way, feel like stalking them in insta or fb. In other word, I know they stories one way, and not two ways like talking the the actual person. 

Some people keep saying, leave your comfort zone!! Leave this, leave that. I know I make excuse for myself. But is not easy to do, like been said. What pissed me most when the person told me this, while the person also for didn't leave their comfort zone. 

Haiz... Just feel like blah out some problems in my mind. Take some times to rethink. Maybe in later days, have another of perspective of thinking and what I think might. Maybe I'll change the way I talk to people. I MUST CHANGE!! At least. See how it goes :/

Peace out (Y)