December is coming to an end, and I just wanna reflect on myself for what I did.
1. CAT finals
Yup, my last 2 papers of CAT paper, I admit, I didn't really seriously study for it and panicked on the last few days cause I wasn't constantly studying.
If I didn't pass my FTX and FFM, I'm not surprise and very disappoint at myself. But I managed to pass my FFA and FMA. so is kinda 2 and 2 to go.
And!! I also paid for the fees for my ACCA tuition fees, if I really didn't pass, the fee of the lesson I took for it will burn, if I didn't pass.
2. D2YC. Ready Set Action!
I'm also took part in helping out in this camp. And also I'm holding a kinda big post, f&b. At 1st I wasn't planning to join d2yc this year, but I was so happened I did f&b for D2Y PAD (parent's appreciation day). So one of the seniors of d2y also try to convince to do for camp, *sigh* and I took it.
That time I was super upset at myself for taking it cause, my finals was super close with the camp dates and I can't really focus for finals, in some ways. My mom also worried about me, cause I spend too much time on thinking what to do for camp and the preparation on f&b before camp.
Anyway, back to my point of f&b in d2yc 2013. Some days it went smoothly, some days committees don't have enough to eat, some days have too much left overs, some days I made milo drink and only a few participants came down to drink and left almost 1 and an half kettle left.
I'm really grateful to all the sponsors I got from KK people. Without them, I dont think dana or talentime will go smoothly. And also some committees that helped out in kitchen, even thou is just cutting fruits, wash a bit here and there. I also appreciate those committees hang around in the canteen or kitchen, at least I know I was not alone and keep me a bit of accompany.
I feel so stupid on the ghost activity. My brain go imagine weird stuff when I'm actually in charged in one particular station, and was in the kitchen. I already hate to be alone while working, and now it gives me weird imagination in the kitchen.
Here we go, what actually happened was, we were trying out what sound to make in the kitchen to scare the participants in the dark. I was I little scared for myself already. When Zhi Xuan off the lights, I was standing next to Zhong Jin, and he was wearing a black tee. At his sleeves got printed words, I mistaken that as a hair of a girl and I screamed, damn loud. Later, I found out, I felt so embarrassed. During that time, I was in a okay-can-talk with Zhong Jin, now I'm like super awkward with them... *sigh* Then later, Zhi Xuan take over my position. Oh ya, my partner for this was Yong Le.
End up, I scared myself, I was pull out, kinda, from being a 'ghost' and be in a safe place with Emily and some of the seniors.
I apologies, even thou they might not see this, for the times I might made you all mad or don't cooperate.
During times, when I'm not in kitchen, I feel super awkward and out of place whenever I join hymn or workshops or discussions. Because mostly almost everyone will be in their groups or gang. So.... Yeah....
But in the end of the camp, I also gain new friends, friends to close friends, close friends to heart to heart friends. Be a bit more brave then usual, I guess?
3. CNY Caroling
Yet, again, I didn't want to take this. And yet again and took the challenge knowing part of me I regretted. A lot of people say that this is a good chance to learn new skills... I know is a good chance to learn, I'm just afraid, later, I can't cope with other things.
Jian Xi, Zhi Xuan and me will be in charge of the caroling. Jian Xi and me never been to caroling, so we are super doom in rhizome field.
At 1st we got problem with booking venue. Then booklets.
No one is taking the booklets from the room where they store things, cause either not free or no transport. So I have no choice to take and at the same time I also need to wait for my neighbors to clear the road cause, my neighbor had open house right in front of my house. so during that time, I could consider myself as no transport since my house gate was blocked by tables and chairs. By the time they cleared, it was almost 4. My bro rushed to bmv, then I rushed to meet sis Bodhi to get the keys and rushed to the room.
Found out I don't have the key to that particular floor, and need to wait for the guy to open. Then I reach that room, I use the wrong key to open the wrong lock, and somehow I broke the freaking key. I managed to pull out the freaking broken piece out and stupidly put that freaking broken piece into the other lock and was stucked inside (means that broken key is for the lock I just put inside). I think because I rushed, the key broke.
When the key freaking broke, I panicked and don't know what to do, and hopefully, when I put th's broken piece, inside the other lock, I could manage to open. Which ends up, stuck inside. So I need to tell sis Bodhi that I broke the key and she helped me called a locksmith. Even the locksmith couldn't take out the broken piece and he had to change the whole lock. That time I panicked and felt guilty that the same time. Damn...
4. 1st caroling
And it was Stephanie's birthday, so we were going to surprise her with a cake and Alex was buying it.
Back to caroling, I didn't expect caroling will be having so few people going. Less than 13 people. Is not what I expected. But it went quite okay despite the number of people.
Continue with Steph. After caroling, then lion dance practise. So when Alex reached, we quickly prepare the cake. When it was done, (cause we light up the candles behind the stage), we kinda rush down the stage, I somehow slipped and fell. I heard a small crack, but that time I pretended nothing happened. And then we surprised Steph, then I went home straight cause my broke already waiting outside.
When I reach the car, the pain starts hitting me and it hurts like hell. Damn... that night, my foot was green/black as hell. Ah Teng even call me Robocop cause I walk limping.
The next morning, after much convinced by my dad, I went hospital to x-ray my freaking foot and found out that I actually fractured my foot.
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I'm not trying to say that I hated these events that happening in my life, even though I always ask myself why these events happened to me and I hated myself for these at times.
But after awhile when I calm down and think for myself and really think on how to solve these problems and challenges.
For me, it takes matter of time for me to realise what's happening and try move on. Things can't always goes what we planned or perfect. There's always a flaw in everything.
